♥Baby, its just another love story.

Sunday, August 19, 2007

2:41 PM Y

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Date posted: Sunday, August 19, 2007;
Time started: 2:41 PM
Posted by:

stephanie

EWWWW!
Dun be sad natalie.
& you said nobody cares about you,
I DO CARE!
i care about you(:
& ilovesyou <333
theres alot of friends who care about you okays.
like, me, ally, anne, siting, zhuoling, kaywerlyn, siru, shermin and lots lots more.
okays?
CHEER UP YO! :DDDDD
and sometimes u cannot have what u want,
like me.
i would like everything to be back to normal,
but can i ?
i noe it is very impossible for everything to be back to normal.
but i'm looking forward.
& natalie,
you still have lots of friends.
nobody hates you.
but i some people hates me,
but i wun hate them back.
whats the point of hating them back,
when i cannot gain anything.
but HATED.
& who want you to die earlier?
if u die, i will cry like hell.
somemore, u dun have enemies so nobody would be so cruel want you to die earlier okays.
in fact people wants me to die earlier, coz they hate me.
but what can i do ?
kill them, murder them, or what?
CHEER UP OKAYS?
nobody would want you to be dead.
and i also noe that,
True friends wont scold each other
They won't accuse each other
They will not leave you alone
They will remain as best friends no matter what you do.
coz i do not have true friends,
they all left me without telling me why.
i want them back, can i ?
i noe i can't so i never asked them for our friendship back.
and u r not unlucky.
coz everyone makes mistake,
& i can also sae that i made lots of mistakes,
until all my 8 months friends hates me.
but time cannot rewind,
the mistakes were already made.
they hate me now,
and its a fact, you cannot change the fact that people hate me.
everybody made mistakes, so do i.
okays?
dun be sad, CHEER UP(:
at least you dun made mistakes until your friends left you,
but i do.
but i really wondered what mistakes have i really made until they left,
they left without telling why.
and crying is normal,
everybody cry,
i cry everyday, but i find it very normal.
coz its already my hobby.
yar, its a fact toos, i cannot change it.
people hate me, means people really hate me,
you cannot change it, can you?
gone means gone, can you let it come to your side again?
can you?
its really a FACT.
its can't be change anymore, no matter what you do.
okays?
think about what i sae.
u can't be sad 4ever, your friends hate to see you sad,
they want you to smile, they want you to be happy like usual you are.
dun be like me, i dun have best friends now,
okays?
look forward, dun stop halfway.
be happy, dun think too much, it will affect your feelings.
you noe, i'm missing the times i have with them, i wan to tell them many things,
but do u think i can?
i can't as they hate me alot now.
time won't rewind.
I WANT THEM BACK! ;(
CHEER UP!
ilovesyou(:
Huggies and Kisses,
will they come back? i'm waiting.

Yours truly, 2:41 PM

Saturday, August 18, 2007

8:41 PM Y

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Date posted: Saturday, August 18, 2007;
Time started: 8:41 PM
Posted by:

stephanie

SOMEBODY, DRAW A SMILE ON FACE CAN?
ONLY MY TEARS CAME, BUT MY SMILE JUST LEFT ME.
LOVES ME BACK, WILL YOU?

Yours truly, 8:41 PM

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

8:33 PM Y

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Date posted: Tuesday, August 14, 2007;
Time started: 8:33 PM
Posted by:

stephanie

HELLOS!
i so long never post(:
and and and today HISTORY TEST WAS SO DAMN DIFFICULT! ;(
i scared i fail ;(
walau!
so pissed,
and they were so lame luhs, for GOODNESS SAKE!
damn freaking ANGRY and SAD! ;(
today, so damn unlucky luhs, yesterday at night i sleeping, i got nightmares!!!!!
i went screaming after waking up!
AHHH!
so scared sia, i got that nightmares 2TIMES!
then today fall down at the stairs for 2TIMES!
what the fcuk luhs!
today morning, before going to school, my mum was saying, walk carefully dun fall down.
then the next second i fall down, i was like WALAU!
then after school, went for swimming then after swimming went home, walk with ANNE! and carissa.
then i stand in the middle of the road, wishing there will be a car banging me down,
then Anne was like damn funny luhs.
she was like so shocked that i stand in the middle of the road,
then she quicky sae,
EH U CRAZY ARH, then she pulled me another side.
then i was like saying u think i so easily die mehs.
then after that i wanted to cross the road, but lots of cars,
then Anne was like dun luhs,
i very scared you noe,
i laughed luhs,
saying scared what, i told you already i wun die so easily one luhs.
then i crossed when not so many cars, but two cars coming then i run (:
HAHAS!
funny! LOLS!
she so funny!
i reached the bus-stop at my hse there, then got one stairs, i walked up, i fall again!!!!!
there is students from KCP, at the bus-stop laughing at me ;(
so embarassing!
i was like FCUK SIA!
so unlucky luhs!
ARGG!
God Bless Me and My Friends, of course, for tomorrow test toos! ;DDD
BYEEE!
i LOVES ANNE! NATALIE! SITING! NAJWA! ZHUOLING! CARISSA! ;DD
hahas.
LOTS OF LOVES! <333333333
GOOD LUCK FOR 2MORROW TESTS, ALL MY DARLINGGGS! <333
Huggies and Kisses,
the loves.

Yours truly, 8:33 PM

Sunday, August 12, 2007

8:19 PM Y

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Date posted: Sunday, August 12, 2007;
Time started: 8:19 PM
Posted by:

stephanie

Tomorrow is MATHS TEST!
AHHH!
SOMEBODY PLEASE KILL ME!
i scare i fail maths ;(
i gonna be died if i fail.
and wish everybody good luck for MATHS TEST!
MIRACLES HAPPENS IF ONLY I PASSED MY MATHS TEST ;DDD
hahas.
kinda stupid and lame right?
well i have nothing esle to do.
but maybe tomorrow or other days i going to post some pictures i took at my cousin hse, when my mummy, sis and me go there to see fireworks(:
but cannot see the fireworks cos theres one building blocking the fireworks. >.<
but we have alots of fun there (:
took lots of pictures with my cousins ;DDD
LOVES THEM LOTS! <33333
THEY ARE ALL MY BELOVED COUSINS!
and TOMORROW DUN HAVE SEEEEETOWWW CLASSS(:
but got maths test luhs! ;(
well, thats all cos i'm going to revise my maths,
BYESSS! [:
Huggies and Kisses,
worries and not peace.

Yours truly, 8:19 PM

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

4:07 PM Y

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Date posted: Wednesday, August 8, 2007;
Time started: 4:07 PM
Posted by:

stephanie

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO SINGAPORE! ;DDD
well, i was actually crying while reading my past post.
i'll recall what had happened.
well, i was late for school again, and was happy with it.
coz i no ned sit with her,
but that just too bad, we have to go back to our class and sit.
of course, i went back to my class,
or esle stand there crying mehs?
i bet u have seen my blog right?
well, happy? sad? angry?
i didn't care much already, its my blog anyway.
i can write whatever i want, and dun make wild guesses for everything.
i have DC today,
2hours!
means i stayed until 1.30p.m and i forget to ask for my ezlink back.
what the!
hais,
sometimes, u didn't noticed that the person u r looking for was beside you,
telling you everything, after a long time u then noticed it when its already too late,
yet she stand by you telling that she had to go now, she will be looking after you in the sky,
i asked her if she can take me along with her, she answered i still have a long way to go.
just then i realised,
yesterday, a car almost banged me down in the morning,
i asked her "WHY"?
why can't the car just bang me down,
i'll live with no regrets,
take me with you,
i dun wan to live anymore.
i'm just too useless to continue living.
let me die, and i'll just rest in peace.
i stared out the window,
thinking, what if one day i am really really tired of living?
will you take me with you to leave this world?
what if i jumped off the building,
will you still take me away?
my friendship is in a mess,
my family is worst,
me myself is tired,
tired of living.
thats all.
its simple.
just take me like taking balloons.
at least i can accompany you, share all my troubles with you, only you.
nobody can disturb us.
and when u sae u loves me, is also when u sae u hate me.
byee,
Huggies and kisses,
without loves and trust.

Yours truly, 4:07 PM

Friday, August 3, 2007

8:08 PM Y

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Date posted: Friday, August 3, 2007;
Time started: 8:08 PM
Posted by:

stephanie

Sometimes, things just cannot change but friendship?
its does change.
obviously!
look at me, and u will noe whats happening, maybe you wun noe, coz u dun understand me well.
the world is turning, but i still not moving, that becoz they always thinks that i'm invisible to them.
thats why i cried, not becoz i'm in bad mood or what, is you all made me cried, but u always sae that i'm in a bad mood.
why?
why must u all treat me like that.
that becoz she went into your life.
me?
i once did, but she can make you happier.
so you at last chosen her but not me.
she loves you as friend, u also loves her as friend.
but then in the end i'm the ones who is invisible in your eyes.
i once scolded her as she is rude to someone she shouldn't be and u follow her, what does it means?
u mean u wanna to follow her?
well go ahead, i won't stop you anymore,
and why should i even stop you?
anyways, if she is not happy, so lets not to be frenz anymore,
i will only be lonely that all.
and if u wan to follow her, not being friends with me anymore, then its okay.
sometimes when i was angry, sad, crying, you always at my side, telling me everything.
but not now and u asked me why am i angry, sad,
i replied "nothing".
thats all, sometimes i dun really wanted to sae out.
and all of the sudden, u came and asked me if i'm okay.
but to me, its already too late, u loves to enjoy first then u will comfort, but now maybe i dun wish to have your comfort and everything again, take them to those u loves as friends but not me.
maybe just treat me not your friend for once.
u always like that, sometimes i dun really wish to accept but i scare u will angry so i accept in the end.
but if you saw my blog and unhappy that i wrote about you, then maybe u can no need to be frenz with me anymore.
since she also unhappy with me.
coz i'm also unhappy with u all, that what i think maybe.
but i cannot forget the days i had been with u all along, ur comfort and everything.
sometimes she also can be a friend snatcher but u dun noe maybe.
u will always think think that in her mind, she is the best, so be it,
i won't mind or anything, but i will be of course " jealous" maybe.
coz when u were with me last time, we so called have good times and everything, until she come into your life, thing started to change like nobody business maybe its really nobody business.
so who really cares?
haishais.
nothing much tell anymore
and god bless(:
THKS NATALIE, ANNE DADDY, XINYI, NAJWA DARLING FREN! AND ALLY DEARIE FOR MAKING ME LAUGH AND COMFORT ME.
THKS FOR YOUR LOVES!
loves yoohs! <3333

huggies and kisses,

the invisible girl.

Yours truly, 8:08 PM